life is so fucking confusing

hey guys. i have a question 4 u. wat do u do wen u feel lyk you're about to fall off the edge of th earth?? i'm in a state of depression and i want that question answered!! okay, i'm going to tell you what happened to me yesterday and tell me if it is weird or not. okay, so, i was trying to get mi freind to go and say 'yes' to a guy that asked her out. so i look up and see mi brother walk by with his friends. one of them is the most amazing guy on the entire planet! his name is Zack. so, i look up and see him and i start crying. i don't know why, but i did. isn't that strange? why did it happen?? i'm so lost. i saw him again today, but, thank god, i didn't cry. on the outside. do i want him that bad?? am i waare that he, a senior, would favor a freshman, espically a loser like me?? well, i'll talk to him and see what i feel. somment on this, please!! i'm lost. and, like, i've said, advice from people i don't know is the best kind!!
<3, me!!