I'll meet you eyes i mean this forever ... chap 5!

kk..
here it's chap 5!! as i promisee
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amm i think this one is a bit lobngy..
hope y'all likee


Gerard's P.O.V

I watched him making that question, God he's wonderful!! Those eyes, those lips, those gorgeous lips I want to kiss so bad. Those lips that are forbidden for me, cuz he doesn't love me the way I love him. But if he loves me…No Gerard come on, it's too early for this. Is this the right moment? I don't know, I guess it's better to keep this in secret for a while, because I will probably scare the shit out of him. But he held my hand… & what's better, he smiled. Oh that smile, that wonderful & beautiful smile. Oh God, how much do I love him, but I can't have him, NO...

"Oh yeah… hum F-Frankie??" I am so fucking nervous. Yeah I was nervous, but how couldn't I be nervous if I'm going to show my feelings for him?

"Yes Gee?" he said with a bright light on his eyes, oh Frankie, why are you so beautiful? But I can't tell him, no, not yet, maybe tomorrow, or maybe in months, years or never. I can't tell him right now & I was beginning to get nervous again, I was so nervous.

"Hum… well you…. I mean" ok Gerard good start, & what's next? All the nervousness filled my body, I can't.

"No… I can't… sorry" I finally said & turned away. Goddamn it Gerard!! Why??? I could imagine his freaked face, but I didn't turn to face him.

So I just started walking through the tour bus; oh poor of Frankie I might have freaked him out. What you have been thinking about Gerard? He doesn't love you Goddamn it!! But what if he loves me too?? No I will never know, I heard him running through me but I just kept walking, I wasn't sure if I really want to talk with him, I have been such a coward; if I really love him I'd have told him; but one part of me wants to tell him ; kiss him so passionately, but the other part of me is afraid of telling him. I know he's not gay ; he won't be.



"Gee please stop!!" Frankie yelled running as fast as he could, I immediately stop & turn facing Frankie, he stopped just a few inches from me, so now we were facing each other.

He is recovering his breath, God even though he was tired he is looking sexy!!

Oh my Frankie, my gorgeous Frankie, I'm so in love with you…



"What Frankie??" I told him a bit nervous, but able to look into his beautiful hazel eyes.

"Hum… Gee..." he said putting his hands on his jeans pockets, I can tell he was nervous but why???

"I-I …" he was playing with his black hair, then he shook his head & said:" Hum… can we go to the tour bus please?" he looked at me, I looked at him a bit disappointed; I hoped he'll tell me how much does he love me, but I was wronged. So I just nodded & we kept walking through the tour bus, but this time not holding hands. But I wanted it so bad; I want to feel his soft skin on mine, to caress his fingers with mines, to have his warm on me.



It was getting cold & Frankie was shivering all our way through the tour bus; so I decided to take off my jacket; give it to him.

"Hey Frankie…" he looked at me & we stopped, I gave him my warm jacket "Hum… for you Frankie" I said as I was putting my jacket on him. When I finished he smiled at me showing his teeth. He looks funny I may add, my normal jacket suited very big on him.



I couldn't help it. Frankie looked funny indeed, so I laughed a bit, making him look at me astonished.

"I'm sorry Frankie… but I just…" I couldn't finish. I was laughing like an idiot. And then Frankie looked at me and raised his arms saying:

"Ha-ha yeah… I got it… you know what??"

"What??" I told him still laughing.

"You have big clothes Gerard! Just look!!!!" he said raising his arms; swaying them all over me "but I like you that way" he said smiling at me. God that smile, just makes me melt.

"Yeah? You think so?" I asked wiping some hair over his eyes.

I swear I could get lost into his eyes & that's what I did; I let myself lost into his wonderful hazel; perfect eyes. I opened my mouth to say something but immediately closed it; smiled at him, yeah it's better of this way. He gave me a smile; nodded:

"Yup!!!"

"Ha-ha good to know that Frankie, so… are we going then?" I asked a bit excited, he just nodded; smiled holding my hand this time. God it felt so good. Frankie holding my hand. And I caressing his fingers and skin lightly.

So we kept on walking through our tour bus… hoping that none of the guys were there.

Shall I list the good things that this day has brought??... Well, first I got a chance to go for a walk with Frankie, I almost tell him how I feel for him, we held hands; now we're on our way to the tour bus…hoping that this day ends perfect….


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hoopee u like this chap!! took me longy timey of writtin ^^
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