Sincerely yours, Never again.

I need to go to Chicago.
I need to look up and see tall buildings towering towards the clouds.
I need to walk the streets at 7:00 in the morning with a chai latte and breakfast from the corner bakery.
I need to be standing in front of newcastle, waiting to cross the street to the cheesecake factory.
I need to sit on the steps behind the fountain, hugging the railings as I sing Nelly Furtado.
I need to walk through the revolving doors of my hotel.
I need to watch the disney channel in my hotel room and order room service with Gianna.
I need to walk down the street with my "Medium brown bag" filled with makeup.
I need a new coat and new flats on, while I'm eating a brownie sundae at Ghiradelli's.
I need to purchase some sort of new electronic device.
I need to make Gianna eat a cheesecake with her name on it!
I need to watch a movie with my mom and dad and Stefano at the theater.
I need to walk along the pier.
I need to walk the mirror maze, alone.
I need to play the racing game at ESPN zone and ride the virtual ride with Gianna and Stefano.
I need to smile in the windy city, and feel alive.

I have to go see Good Charlotte.
I have to wait in line all day long, wasting so much time.
I have to run for my life to the barricades.
I have to get crushed and torn.
I have to scream until I've lost my voice.
I have to jump until I'm sick.
I have to sweat and ruin my hair and clothes.
I have to put everything behind me.
I have to meet Joel Madden.
I have to give him my painting.
I have to walk away,
and then I have to leave Chicago.
.... and I have to do it all over again.